I’ve been finding myself lately pondering writing as though it were like getting up on a high dive board at the Olympics. Have I mentioned my fear of heights, Gentle Reader?
One thing that happens is so much time is spent on reading everything I think I “need” to read and writing stuff I think I “need” to write, that by the time it comes to putting paw to “creative” keyboard, there’s no time or I’m mentally drained. This is a lot what happens in today’s world in general, really. Everyone’s glued to their screen, whatever it is, and time gets taken up, resources are expended, and what actually happens? Not much. But you’ve been busy, right? Without accomplishing anything productive or harmonious or dynamic. This is starting to seem like it is actually the point- we are “guided” by “society” to function in ways that seem to create nothing but entropy for us, if we are really honest. Consume, react, repeat. And for HEAVEN’S SAKE!!! Do NOT confuse yourself with actual facts. Mercy. Don’t stop and ponder the fact that perhaps those extra pounds everyone’s so worried about could be handled by simple label reading and not purchasing things where the ingredients are largely corn and corn syrup related. And why are so many in this country so overweight even though an unduly large percentage of us live in poverty and hunger? Not to mention the rest of the world. Why, in fact, is so much of the food we eat here not even really FOOD? And definitely do not let yourself think too long about the fact that actual flat out blatant lies are being told as the truth, all day long, about things that have a direct impact on people’s lives. A good recent example is the DEA saying that it will continue to classify cannabis as a drug on a par with heroin. No research, they said, no demonstration of medical use. This is simply not true and it doesn’t take an investigative genius to find that out. As a result people are suffering needlessly. This will only end, of course, when the Big Boys figure out how to get all the money from this product, and not until then. Oh, and then there’s the little problem of opiate addiction (where they DO get all the money)- amazing what a visit to the dentist can do to you. But God Almighty, you can’t have cannabis for that. You’ll get addicted to THAT. And, of course. Do not even consider focusing on just what it would take for everyone to have a decent life: cooperation. Respect. Having a value based on something other than personal aggrandizement. We do, after all, have to make America……what, exactly?
What I decided at long last is it’s just another invitation to start again, to re-think, and the most fun of all, exercise some self discipline. The temptation to go along with the flow, the tide, the crowd, the truth as you are expected to believe it is great. Now, one could dissolve into a quivering puddle of horrified yuck at any moment, or into a twirling helix of anger- just by going out to the store, or watching the news. This is the same kind of inanition I’ve been experiencing lately. It’s all so overwhelming. But then I realized something. (For the umptieth time- when will it stick?) Being paralyzed by things is not going to cut the mustard. And the rehash…..well. Enough, already, of that.
It will be fun to see if I can actually make sense of this for you, GR. But today I read a really good description of Mercury retrograde. (Bear with me, here.) We’re accustomed to the warnings about not signing agreements and how our appliances and cars will appear to go temporarily insane during these periods that occur relatively frequently, and Mercury goes, in our view, backward. But Eric Frances, in Planet Waves (I have a link!) wrote about it being something that exposes what has gone before- shakes the tree, as he put it. So, then, this means? that if you haven’t paid attention, have glossed over things, or functioned as a case of Walking Entropy, problems and consequences will arise with which you will have to deal.
So, OK. Instead of having a feeling of dread about Mercury retrograde, perhaps a more sensible thing is to say, now we’ll see where I didn’t pay attention, where I lacked clarity. The cosmos in effect gives you a way to clean up your act, a few times a year. If we see these times as periods where we shouldn’t do much because Things Will Go Wrong, we’re missing the point altogether. Instead, this is a frequent flyer marvelous opportunity. Most of the things we consider to be intractable problems are really areas where we are not paying proper attention, or willing to do the right thing. Like, say, eat right, or keep your elected officials accountable for their actions. These are every day actions. Small things in a way. Eat real food and cook it yourself, let your “representatives” know you are watching what they do. Spend your resources consciously. This means things like, for us anyway, not buying any more Limonata which we both adore- because why? Because Pellegrino is owned by Nestle, and Nestle is contributing to water problems on the planet in a macro way- by for example, getting water from here in California for cents on the gallon and reselling it to you, the consumer, and us from whom it was essentially taken without consent, for a large profit. And for extra fun putting it in plastic bottles which end up in the ocean. This is real stuff, Gentle Reader, not propaganda. Using your grocery money with awareness is an example of a very small thing you as an individual can do that ultimately has an impact on the entire planet (where we all do live). Especially if enough of us stop fearing Mercury retrograde and actually attend to what we’re doing.
Then I thought about what might happen if enough people on earth start doing these small things. Evidence suggests this is happening, however slowly. There’s an energy and a power there, and what with all the worldly and political glitches coming to view, it might be possible to do what isn’t, really, rocket science. Which is: CHANGE THINGS. Because I personally don’t want to see one more image of one more bloodstained child or mangled man or blasted building or beaten woman in the name of what it really is all done for: Money. Or one more parent who can’t get treatment for their sick child. Or themselves. Or afford it even if they CAN get it. We seem now to live in a stupor so that the top sector of the world can live in its chosen cocoon. We keep our eyes shut and are exhausted because it seems too tiring to do anything else. It is not going to work- and really? it hasn’t. So we got a BIG Mercury retrograde thing going on whether we like it or not.
When, however, you open your eyes you see the world. And it is beautiful. It is always new. Each step you take, each piece of trash you pick up, each person you treat with respect, wakes you up. It’s tempting to stay in the old habits and patterns- but it is also constricting and suffocating and ultimately not even possible (uhm, thank you Mercury?). Walking through the world with open eyes is when you can begin to claim your true inheritance as a human being- inclusion, not exclusion. Love. Not fear or hate. Healing, not making yourself sick. Worth a try.
And, for extra motivation: